Daily Journal: Day 30 of 365

There’s a new girl at work, she’s been there a couple of weeks maybe. She’s something like 22 or 23 years old and seems like she’s very, very driven. In one way, she’s rather annoying. I’m already a bit tired of hearing about how she interned at Disney, and how she could have managed her own store at Dick’s Sporting Goods at 20, and all the other things that she’s so good at. I’m sure there are a fair number of people at work who have already pegged her as an arrogant bitch.

On the other hand, though, I rather admire her ambition. As I was working in the file room today, I found myself wondering where my ambitions all went. I had them when I was a kid, and when I was a teenager. Now it seems that my major ambitions are just to make it through another day of work and to have enough money to pay the bills. Maybe get a house one of these days. Not too much beyond that really drives me. I guess most of my ambitions faded away in a haze of “good enough for now.” Since I got this job full-time, I haven’t even bothered to look for another one. Despite the fact that I was making almost twice as much money before, and despite the fact that my job leaves me almost brain-dead by the end of each day. I guess I should really try to get off my ass and make something better of myself…

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