Another day, no 'nother dollar...

I am, as often seems to be the case, having a very difficult time getting myself motivated to do anything today.  On Tuesday, the girlfriend couldn't sleep, and we stayed up until about three in the morning playing Scrabble.  I beat her at two games this time, which puts us even at three games apiece now.

Before we got up and played, we had a conversation that makes me feel like I'm just fucking this relationship up the same way I fucked up my marriage.  I don't know what the deal is with me, but it seems like once I can have sex whenever I want to, I just lose interest in it.  And, of course, the fact that I'm sitting here in the midst of a major depression doesn't help my libido a whole hell of a lot either.  Fuck.

After staying up half the night, I wound up sleeping in far later than I should have, till about 10:30 or so.  It was cold out here in the living room most of the day yesterday.  I figured it would be better to just leave the heater off and save the power, therefore saving some money.  I really do wish the weather was a little more stable here, but that's the way it goes.  It's cold again this morning, and looks to be the same for tomorrow.

Once I did finally get up and about yesterday, I checked the e-mail and such after getting the computer back up and running.  It was busy running the antivirus scan, and it takes friggin' forever to get the thing to respond when the scan is active.  I miss the computer from work quite a bit, but I guess I'd better get used to this piece of crap again, because it's probably going to be a number of months before I can afford to buy anything better.

After I'd tinkered around on the computer for a while, I emptied the dishwasher and did most of the hand washing that needed to be done.  I then made a loaf of Irish soda bread, in an effort to use up the buttermilk in the fridge before it goes bad.  Unfortunately, the recipe which the girlfriend suggested I use only called for about 3/4 cup of buttermilk, and we had a whole lot more than that still in the bottle.  So today, I'm going to make some Irish yeast bread from a different recipe, and that will still leave enough for another recipe of something which I'll either make this evening or tomorrow.

I also brought down the DeLorme mapping disc that I'd found a few weeks ago while bringing stuff up from my storage unit.  I wanted to find out if it was the data disc for the new version of their software, but it turns out that it's just the disc with the telephone data on it.  I'm going to spend much of the next week and a half digging through all the crap up in the room upstairs, and hopefully I'll come across the main data disc.  Unfortunately, I don't have a really great feeling that it's going to surface in the mass.  We'll see, though.  We might have to travel old-school, using real, live paper maps.

After the girlfriend got home, we had a light dinner of fresh-baked bread with various toppings, and we sat and watched Cash Cab and Mythbusters, even though there was no new show on.  The cold finally got to us, though, and we headed into the bedroom a bit earlier in the evening than usual.  The girlfriend was also pretty damned tired from having stayed up so late and then opening at work.  So we sat there and watched the rest of the Mythbusters episodes and some of her house shows that she likes.  She kept drifting in and out of sleep, too, and she wound up staying up later than she really wanted because of it.  We finally did head off to sleep around midnight or so.

This morning, I got up feeling a little more refreshed, but still not very happy and not very ambitious.  I did go through a couple of boxes of books and selected out some more that I can take down to one of the used bookstores and sell.  I took a box and a bag of the sales fodder out to the car, and grabbed a few things out of my old car, which I need to clean out to sell.  I also did some of the hand washing and made a loaf of bread.  And, finally, I've hung up the mirror over the fireplace, which the girlfriend says that Corey's been promising to do for about three years.  At least I only procrastinated on that one for a couple of months...

The girlfriend had a late lunch, because she's closing today.  When she was home, she asked if I could go do some shopping.  I told her that would be fine, and we came up with a list of hopefully not that expensive food to get.  So, I need to head out to the store soon and do that, so I can get it done before she gets home.  She did say that she appreciates the stuff I'm doing around the house, but I'd still rather be working and making a living...